My System, My Self

One week before fasting month my notebook had some troubles. Spywares and viruses took away the system and all of a sudden it stopped working. I brought my notebook to the service center and all they said was they concerned that the viruses might already infected the whole system and they would try to get rid of it, but that was just an option, the other option was cleared all the viruses by formatting the whole system which meant the files i had in my notebook will be gone, so did the viruses. Daaaaaannngg!!!..i haven’t saved the whole files in my external hard disk and they were about to gone??..Oh mon Dieu, i hadn’t save:

1. My mp3s..hehehehe…i had like zillion and it was hurt to know they were all soon be gone
2. My photos..the memories..with friends, parents, siblings..hiks…yeah, the ex lovers’ were gone too, like they were..
3. My very essential documents..God, where am i gonna get others?

Bottom line is, Gone..Gone..Gone

Well, Gone..Gone..Gone..i realized that my system is my self (like Carrie Bradshaw in SATC episode My Motherboard, My Self…hehehehehe)..i put my whole life in the memory of a hard disk so did in the memory of my brain, the difference is in brain i called them simply ‘memory’, while in the hard disk system i called it ‘memento’

So gone are my memento..it was like a sign that i should start a whole new life..a whole new memory was about to begin which would serve me more and more mementos…I should get ecstatic, but i didn’t..i was afraid of losing all i had, it was okay for me to lose someone, i had the memories with me but i need something to remember of, a memento, and they were about to gone.

I had my notebook back on the first day of fasting month and yes, the mementos were all gone..the system was all new and fresh..at that time, i told to my notebook (yeah, my notebook is a very great listener, it never complains) that we were about to create new life..the old system had too many dangerous files , had too many spywares, had too many viruses that caused trouble, so did my old life..so a whole new system means a whole new life..what a great time to start it all on fasting month..It’s not like my life completely changed but it’s just rejuvenate or revive.

Man-Friend, Position : Vacant

Well, what i meant by the title is that i am just trying to pull out a statement to declare me being single..hehehehe…it’s not like i’m craving for a man-friend right now, no i am not…i am just gonna let loose and waiting for love to come my way.

“Hey why Man-Friend??”

Yeah…why do you think i only search for a man-friend?..cause i am a boy and i need a man to take care of me..another boy just bring me headache..as for me, baby boy??no mas…hehehe..

How do you categorize one as a man-friend…here are some thoughts from me

1. A man-friend usually more mature than you….it’s just my personal POV since i always prefer mature man, in term of age & experience, but not a grandpa..hihihihi

2. A man-friend usually care to give you some wisdoms…again, it’s my personal POV since i always learnt something from this type of man..a lot to learn.

3. A man-friend usually taken care of you seriously…when a man knows how to handle and to treat you well, this is the one.

4. A man-friend usually have the ‘fatherly’ side…this is what i like about having a man-friend, always knows how to keep you safe & warm and to guide you in every aspects of life & love, including bed, hihihihihi..and he has a way to think like he is the backbone of your relationship and he meant what he said.

5. A man-friend usually valued your thoughts…like a man, he will hear & appreciate your thoughts and give some positive feedbacks, even he has several negative feedbacks, he knows how to said them positively..you can even discuss a lot of things together, and he will make you feel like a grown-up while he can keep you both cool and knows how to turn the heat, if you know what i mean..hihihihi.

Those 5 points are all i can think of, would you like to add some more?

But don’t get me wrong, as far as i’m concern, a man-friend is just hard to find, i believe so because i might affected by a well-known-quote

“Boys Will Be Boys”

Yeahhh, Boys will always be boys, while in a man lived a boy..so a man never really turned into a man, cause there’s a boy within who will always be boy..if a man never really turned into a man, and boys will always be boys,

“would you think a gay will be a man??..well, a gay will never be a man, as i assumed that even a boy always be a boy, never be a man..gay will always be gay, never turned to man..so what’s the point of the TV show that tried to turned gays into men?”

Hahahaha..that’s just me being a little bit cynical..living in a gay world made me see a lot of man whom i thought is my dream man-friend, but hey, the reality isn’t the dream’s vision..

eventhough a (gay & straight) man can never be completely turned into a gentleman, since the boy within keep alive, there must be some qualities, more than meet the eyes, that will always make you feel the beautiful zsa zsa zsu everytime you are with him..

when you feel that, that’s your future man-friend, what are you waiting for, seal the deal…hehehehe..I remember a quote from Doris Day

“All I ever wanted was a baby, a husband who really loved me, a home. I never got that.”

But, as for me, i want to stay positive, i would say

“All i ever wanted was a man who really love me unconditionally, a comfortable home, a peaceful yet stable life, and if it’s possible, a baby. Hopefully i will got that one day.”

I always said that i am like the male version of Meredith Grey and i am getting sure now that i am..especially when Meredith vulnerably pictured her dream home with Derek up on the hill in the end of Season 4..oww, that’s just beautiful..here’s one similarity between Me & Meredith, deep inside we both wanted a stable life eventhough we couldn’t really show it sometimes..

Owww…i am just gonna find my man-friend in the right time..up until now, it’s vacant…anyone, wanna fill the position??..call me up for a walk-in-interview..hihihihi..

xoxo

RiRi

Battle of The Ads

VS

Yeah, here’s the battle of the ads…both ads drawn me to different erection, oops, i mean direction..hihihihi..the first series kinda funny, especially with the tag-line, and the second series need no words, the images speak real loud…Moi, je prefere les deuxieme publicitaires, the positions are very intriguing (yet quite challenging, susah lho, bikin capek juga..hihihihihi) and they are well delivered, straight to the point yet provocative, besides, that’s what condom is all about, sex, right?

xoxo

RiRi

(pictures courtesy of Durex & Kama Sutra)