Saipul Jamil-esque

This is not a post about Saipul Jamil, just a post that inspired by him, well in certain ways.hehehe

I remember watched infotainment one day and there was a feature about Saipul Jamil missing her girl, the woman he loved who happened to be on another country..The next day i saw another infotainment which also featured the same ‘Saipul Jamil longing for his girlfriend’ story..Let’s fast forward to couple weeks later; I, who keep maintain good relationship with my ex-es, all of a sudden heard each and every one of them said or wrote a ‘Saipul Jamil longing for his lover’ comment, well, kinda.

ex #1
“Duuhh nyesal banget putus sama R**n..kangen banget..dia udah ga di bandung, i really wanna tell him how sorry i am”

(me mumblin’)..Yeahhhhh, go told this to your friggin boyfriend, damn you are so Saipul Jamil

ex #2
“He’s already in Oslo, he will helped me there, prepared everything, we both will live together, Gosh, i miss him already, his doe-eyes always made me tingly, you know that right?..it should be you i married on january, we’ve heard about then new rule in Oslo January 2009 right?, but anyway, we’re old flame, it’s him the one i had now, Oohh, i am so in love”

(me mumblin’)..I don’t give a damn on the doe-eyes lad, i don’t give a f**k on the new rules of marriage there..you’re just another Saipul Jamil-esque

ex #3
“Kami mau liburan Milan-Paris tanggal 20..ga sabar ketemu sama dia”

(me mumblin’)..Another ex turned Saipul Jamil? Oh God, i need a rest here

What they did were perfectly understandable, they’re in love..When you’re in love sometimes you just look so radiant and all you need is to tell the world that you’re perfectly in love..i really understand that..It’s not that i hate they’re in love, i even gladly talked to them even if they talked about their lover, because i thought i would be happy when they’re happy.

But i was wrong, well i feel happy when they’re happy, yes, correct, but the issue i had here is jealousy, it’s all come to mind..but i just couldn’t avoid talk to them without talk about their current lover, so i need to made an amend to the ‘talking to you ex lover about your current lover’ rules which need to be specifically re-defined especially the chapter ‘Talk about current romance to the old flame’

So i began to draw a line..a line that i defined as ‘jealousy tolerant’ line..Jealousy tolerant is the limit of the amount of jealousy you can take from your ex-lover’s craps about the his/her current romance..what to tolerate??

1. When he/she mentioned his/her current lover..tolerable, check.
2. when he/she talked about how they finally be a couple…tolerable, check.
3. when he/she talked about how nice the current lover is…tolerable, check.
4. when he/she talked about how he/she always longing for the current lover…less tolerable.
5. when he/she constantly said that the current lover is the greatest love he/she had …less and less tolerable
6. when he/she talked about having a future planned with the current lover…this is exactly the limit of my ‘jealousy tolerant’ line, this is intolerable.
7. when he/she talked about them having sex/making love/f**k each other or whatever that was in any languages or terms that defined such activity…ENOUGH!!!! ‘jealousy tolerant’ line already been crossed.

What happened when your ex-es crossed the ‘jealousy tolerant’ line??..me myself, i am gonna be disturbed on everything related to this couple, it’s like i am ready to slamdunk-ed them, i am ready to smacked them down each time i had a chance..i used to did this, but i realize that it’s no classy.

Since i am a classy creature (always have, always will..hehehe), when the ‘jealousy tolerant’ line being crossed i will calmly stated

“Oh, good…my best wishes for both of you..i will be happy when you’re happy, selama kamu bahagia dengan yang sekarang aku akan mendoakan semoga terus diberi yang terbaik dari hubungan kalian”

Well, i couldn’t believe i said this but i felt like that statement was a statement a la Dewi Persik after divorced? hahahahahahaha.

In the end, i realized that the ‘jealousy tolerant’ line will just caused me dizzied by constant innuendo of jealousy in head, which that’s what i am trying to escape from….so, please do not having that statement misinterpreted as jealousy in disguise, because, it’s pure, from the heart, and i really meant it.

Logically speaking, when the ‘jealousy tolerant’ line being crossed there are certain area that still caused you pains until you said ‘ENOUGH!!’, but mostly, behind the line, there is an area i called ‘numb-grey’, the area that makes you numb and being in between..it’s a transition area..at certain moment being ‘numb-grey’ is the best thing to do, especially when you’re in accepting-the-reality-phase..i believed this is the one that keep me sane from my Saipul Jamil-esque ex-lovers..hahahahahaha.

xoxo

RiRi

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